DITD #1

07/11/2024 @ 22:27 GMT 

It felt difficult to draw while I could see what colour I picked up, it felt wrong each mark that I could see, I wanted to not draw with an aim… but because I could see what I was doing I could not really help myself… it felt like I had chains on my hands and whatever I drew in that moment was not mine, but something Wrong…

SOLUTION:

I decided I would draw blindly on a fresh page… I tried first just closing my eyes… that was better but I opened my eyes too many times, it wasn’t easy/ I could not draw comfortably. At this point I decided to turn off the lights. Now I can kind of see but will not be able to really make out what I am doing or what colours I am using.

The picture above was made while I drew in the dark.

I’ve titled this DITD #1

There’s a lot of moments in this drawing that I enjoy

orange+blue moment // green+red moment /// yellow line running through the middle (which I felt like only need to be a line, it just worked out perfectly) ////

When I look at it, I feel as though I am being visited by multiple people, like there is a presence being made. Anyways, I will keep doing this practice and see what else comes of it. I think this could also be a good way to know myself more.

On a less positive, positive note, I do feel a bit uneasy… other factors to be considered -> world tragedies, luteal phase, living on unstable island, slowly falling in love (with my new home), self pressurising

I saw this thing called “hopecore” today and it made me laugh. People are taking the piss out of the cores. But I really do like hopecore… I’d be down for more hopecore than a lot of the other cores.

I feel like so much will come out of me

it’s slowly coming, I just want to capture it, as much as I can… I am limited, time is limited, but I am here so I’ll be able to at some point and I see it so clearly, and it feels like it’s almost laughing at me in this little blind drawing. Like I’ve said in other posts, I understand people will read this but I really try to only right this so it makes sense to me… if something is of the most importance to the general public or loved ones I would try a bit harder to make it make sense to you…but really if you don’t understand this that is completely fine, thank you for reading through this anyways I hope, if at all, you got something of value from this.