remembered feeling

i am finding a new appreciation for art today

I’ve noticed, from writing, what makes impactful work, what makes impactful paintings, impactful sculpture, impactful anything… It’s the cycles, going through the cycle over and over and over again, intentionally, with some awareness of your last passings, maybe you forget some of the passes you went through and that’s fine and normal, but at some point your body remembers them anyways, like with baking or cooking food, you see someone whose picked up a piece of fish or whatever over a thousand times, they hold it differently.. they hold it like they know something and you can taste it immediately… I find the more I go through and piece together my work, especially with writing, it seems like it becomes more clear, and I’ve always been one to not be that clear but I can see it becoming more important, important as in, people can grab onto it better, there’s actually some value in my mind which I’ve mapped out in a physical form of a piece of writing (I’m putting together my first book now) … This book I’m writing feeling like I have a load of clay and I’m starting to make a sculpture, right now I have the basic form, and now I’m going over it again, defining it more, adding the details where they should be, looking over again, creating a full picture, a full image for the reader, I love this so much, since I can’t physically produce the large bodies of visual artworks (no studio, no money for studio, or necessary materials for the visions) this is my release and it has been so helpful, I’m so grateful for this time, even though I crave a space and time for me to make the work I want to make this is a gift.