monologue march

This is a reminder to myself to write this today x

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Not particularly related to what I’m going to post today but just thought of how I used to have this kind of boldness to rip a cigarette out of someone’s mouth if I thought they deserved it and it makes me laugh. Like I have on more than one occasion swiped a cigarette from someone’s mouth so smoothly they didn’t even know what to say. It’s making me laugh so much, I can’t believe I’ve done that.

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Still not particularly related to what I’m going to post today but

it’s also my dad’s birthday (rest in peace and celebrating you more than just today). Funny that I am not religious anymore but decided this year to practice lent because I want to cut out as much sugar from my life as possible. But after a week of barely any sugar I am starting to feel the effects and I want some so bad, and I thought… well… today is my dads birthday… could myself a lovely German chocolate cake in honour of… which is only a little bit fucked up and funny and I think my dad would have laughed. I blame dad for my great sense of humour.

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Still not particularly related, but I thought I’d put these quotes in like great authors do at the beginning of a fantastic novel…

“SPENDING 80K ON A WEDDING IS NOT ALLOWED.” - some guy I over heard

“Sick poncho.” - same guy

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I’ve decided against posting the monologue I was intending to post. It is just too personal. Like at some point I will find it less threatening but it feels like a snake to me, like in my mind, there is a river and this particular monologue would be a snake on the raft with me and I don’t feel like I necessarily have the bravery to grab it by the head yet and shove it a bag (this blog).