controls

sharing the feeling

emotionally sharing stones to build a stair case out of something light and durable (it’s easy to build together, like we were weightless beings) , to see above the barrier, our shared feelings

beginning again

shared feelings

controls is a strange word… it’s an important word… everything could be a control as long as that control is something you know completely, and when do we know anything completely? so, the word control is really just a concept of something we strive for, like “constants”, when is something ever constant? Taking the same medicine at the same time of day everyday… yet the seconds might be off by 2 and the clocks may go back an hour… it is strange this idea of a constant and control when in reality it’s just a best try to make a pattern until that pattern is not needed anymore, until it transforms into another pattern… it would be lovely to learn more about controls and constant things, things that have been almost perfectly constant would be interesting to know about… as a perfect control can never exist… which in itself can be something said about any kind of existence

if there can never be a perfectly controlled/constant variable then we are never the same, every realised moment is slightly folding into another realised moment, so the folds build and build and build until there is a whole human, until their is whole everything else, continually folding into each other, physically and nervously

i’d like to fold paper

and make a massive accordion…(melodeon)… like paper and it be for us