drones
An update on things
Something I am wanting more of, in myself, is organization + discipline. I know my work ethic thrives on a structure instead of this abundance of energy going everywhere without a destination.
At this point, I’ve done exactly 7 drawing in the dark (DITD) drawings and I haven’t written about the last 5. Why? Because writing about it isn’t the point. The point is it’s about a process it is not the end result but an exercise with a possibility for an idea to generate from it. But they are basically just shadow boxing.
In the span of the last 5 DITD’s I’ve begun destroying and collaging a small guidebook to last years new gallery openings, cutting up paintings and developing a small artist book, creating drag race bingo for a holiday party, and writing/editing more of that short story I started a few months ago.
I’m concerned about the short story right now because I think it would be interesting to get the drones conspiracy incorporated, the ones flying over northwest United States right now that is causing a bit of a hype in the media.
My most recent historical knowledge of drones from the past 6 years
I knew a man who allegedly worked for special operations in the U.S. military. He worked at home, and I forget what it’s called but he was called by the military to serve with no return date in some submarine at a classified location that even his wife couldn’t know about. He worked specifically with intelligence, code cracking, and drones. He said there is a room in his home that he would work from to kill people. Intelligence wise, he told me that going to chat with people at a bar is how he would get a lot of information from people, that is, people he tried to hack information from. He said the best way to get passcodes because they are a bit more relaxed, and you can make easy conversation get the personal information out a lot quicker.
Before I met the man above, I knew a young veteran, young as in still in his 20’s who served in special operations in the U.S. military in the middle east. He shot people from airplanes; I want to say he went on hundreds of flights, but I cannot confirm that because it’s been so long I can’t remember. All I know is that he was 18 or 19 when he was deployed. When I met him, he was an alcoholic. One day when he was over to visit my flatmate/my friend/his gf I confronted him about stealing liquor out of my bedroom closet and he tried to deny it at first, but it was obvious he would be the only one to do that. I don’t know what all he had to go through but at that time he broke down, what do you do after your job, your service to this world was at one point to murder people sometimes children, he never talked about how many kids he killed. I say he was broken because that is what he told me, we spoke, well he spoke mostly and cried to me about the pain, I did not pry any details because I wouldn’t want to do that to someone, I feel like that would have caused him more harm than good. So we sat together in the corner of my bedroom floor and he kept apologizing and crying. I feel like if someone is crying with you it’s a duty to let that person get it out, let it go, as much as one possibly can. I’m not sure why he was really crying though, I feel like that’s not my journey to know, however, I knew his life was difficult even without his experience in the military.
---- What does this have to do with drones? -----
well, I’m thinking about this man because he had to be there and see, at whatever distance, for a human life be taken away from this earth, I have no idea what that does to someone physiologically but I assume from all the testimonies it fucks with the body and mind, the nervous system, everything connected to your nerves, connections we don’t even know of yet…
So, what is a solution? I assume the military uses drone strikes not only as a more efficient way of killing people but also because remote drone strikes may be less psycho / physiologically disturbing than handling the command in person. This is what I’m sure they try to say anyways, I’m probably wrong, unless a soldier would like to correct me, please do. To clarify again, this is all speculation… Another theory, is that remote drone strikes could be more psychologically / physiologically disturbing because what if the government starts deep faking what the soldiers are remotely shooting, what if they find out that instead of remotely shooting a group of grown men “confirmed” to be terrorists it was actually a bunch of children on a beach. The soldier cannot confirm or deny whether they killed who they actually killed because they were not there. We are getting into a quite dangerous Schrödinger's Cat situation and I am fearful about the reality of the coming days. I know this is a bit dramatic, but now we have the technology to really fuck everything up if it is not handled MORE SLOWLY AND CONSIDERATLY… We are moving too fast and at some point no one will have time to even care if people die or not.
