loops

I need to take my time with things and not try to rush because I feel anxious, sometimes, that I have no time…Then I thought about that book I started reading a while ago The Ministry of Time by Kaliane Bradley… and then I kind of got stuck on the word “ministry”… first because I just think it’s a funny word “mini-stree” and how I typically think of Christianity automatically because I grew up around so many so-called ministries that God ordained, allegedly, maybe a few, but I highly doubt on every corner of my town God had time to ordain everybody that would be ridiculous…

Tyrant by Kali Uchis is playing now and I’m distracted because I love this song

I’ll pick this back up later

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It’s now later… I decided to call this note, a loop because

• we circled back to it

• “All around we goooo…” - Kali Uchis

• “Keep spinning me round n round n round n round n round” - Kali Uchis, again.

• time as a loop

• the loop of faces of a bf from years ago and his hand

• gentle, loops in his hair

• gentle, loops of graphite on the nose

that’s the connections I have with loop and the content of todays note … idk why I’m stuck on this.