ripped

thinking about ripping up things

collage

thinking a lot about collage

what’s the reason for me to feel a lot of parts of me, and a lot of times of me are just as useful as a blade of grass

.. i had that thought the other day, that i’m as useful as a piece of grass and not in a good way, as if to say I was pointless… but actually grass is very useful and important

Anyways I’m a woman with female organs, if I had a choice when I was younger I’d probably consider myself but they/them but I’m so used to my that prison of a word, it feels like I’m almost institutionalized as a woman .. who doesn’t like to do a lot of things typical feminine things, like having my nails done or things like that.

I keep myself from eroding like a piece of grass

That’s why they’re useful

I find not fitting into the prison of the word, women is because I’ve let my yard over grow with tall grass and other plants

So my soul doesn’t move much, but the word woman is strange. I am a woman and do what majority of other humans might consider normal woman things

I’m almost done with my period now and even that word is strange to call this time of my life… it’s a substantial part of my life not just a period (I know) . what would be an appropriate word for it or description idk

I learned most studies that include women are done while females are not on their periods… they are done while they are most like males… and I’m trying to look up studies about what is happening mentally to me during these times and I’m finding little research.